like trash

and when it got to-o
much, and on and on and on and

"better than taken prisoner"

no, it didn't feel right, and the small space he had made
the light was blinking

" :be dead "

the goodbye part, right,

and they painted us white and pressed us together, when you pulled me out you began to carry me,
and i knew i was going up, i said,
i never wanted this
and you carried me to the veil , so i broke sticks for you, to find your way back
because i wouldn't be with you again, i said,
i never wanted this
when you reached the top you dropped me, i wouldn't say gently, but it was softer than they had said it would be and when you looked at me that long,
i heard the others, down bottom say
whos-that
i knew you were some sort of person other than "this" person, i said,
i just wanted something small that couldn't run away
and when you left me there i saw you look back for me, and the green i had always seen inside you saying, maybe this isn't it, i felt come through, and i knew - i could have followed


but i'd never moved, / tried to climb down, and i had been that way for a very long time

black sea of some-thing

it was brought to every, one,'s attention, my own unenlightenment, well she said you've written him a lot do you think i haven't read them, and when i realized that way my only opening i asked

to what result, tess? and when she looked at me it was a funny feeling and i thought perhaps i had just-

erased the last few days, i had imagined this sort of sudden decline of,

all-

she laughed and she was more beautiful alive or dead or alive

, than i could ever have imagined, a jolene-well-fuck-feeling , "not returned in kind" she says sending my present self into a paroxysm - hadddddd something, didn't i, well no, you'll forget it tomorrow when the next wave comes through, when they stared through , and watched the bush bleed i heard them say is it really that bad and i smiled a lot, i said, let me just sit, i love to sit

god, i said, it's just - i want to sit, and when i sat he came over, and handed me a pile of broken glass, i touched them all he says 

i know you like the broken ones

Horace

he was reading
his ideas - from a big book in the center and she nodded on as to show
encouragement and when she walked up they all stood like - !
"your doctor keeps sending me letters" she said and they all moved their heads from one side to the other because they knew she had fallen out of her body "they say they've found the cure" and she handed over a pile of mail - bright blues and reds printed out and out and out
"well"
and now where, everyone else was at the cardboard church
screaming , she looked around a Long time
for a curb and everyone just waving
she said-
there is a perfect moment coming, walking forward, i am an other

an education, well, for me you see..

i went in it was empty and i knew this so, that was it, and maybe they all knew , in some, way, it wasn't right for me but they were so hidden behind the glass that it didn't mean anything and when they saw him stab me with the key , over and over
they sat pressed in and maybe one stopped breathing just for a sec-ond but no one did anything and I could never ask for that so I took a nap on the floor and I didn't wake up until winter time /for 2 minutes you sat with me and they all said are you lonely for the first,time, and I said I think so
when I watch you do it
its worse that anything? some sharp terrible pain I've never felt before and more tired than I have ever been no one noticed it was all over for me and I sat there not breathing going on with it and when it got too much I spit my dinner into a sea shell and banged my head into the tree you grew for them

he loved big brother

god i said i'm sickof all that
beating boats-shit and i wanted something reaally really really reaaaly
i liked the part when i ripped it open and
,y my hands hurt and it was just, a mountain of dirt!
there was a horrible bug in my hair and i looked over and jacob had spit on the ground but i was apart of that ground and i said thank you!it was soft if this was the end please let this be my end and i said i don't want to stop does it just keep going,like this?

that wolf

no
one said the word but i said i - am - not - toooooo - stupid and i ,allalong, had understood to the highest degree what they had done and i did not like the red lady talking to the other red lady and i had a little little plan and i saw the hole-in-the-fence and yeah i said but everyone|knew so i just took a breath in once a day and said ohhhhh noooooo im still here!!!!

hello. hello. hello. hello. hi. hi. hi. hi

it was then that you said climb climb and we all hopped up and we were dirty,
so there it is ,
and I didn't get the front but I felt it and I could feel you speak to me when we prayed to it I thought well
I saw you in your pocket but it made me say ahhh I said keep me around awhile before - so you picked the,
other one
and when you made her do it I climbed into my chest and said I'll just lie down but I won't close my eyes
it hurt her and maybe it was;bad but I said maybe that blood could have been my blood
, you blinked twice I said for me
i felt the little push and I laughed a little maybe some of them don't understand the sound but I know it's making your back hurt,

the sacrifice , hungry dog

you must be from a movie I said and I really meant it and I closed my eyes a little and felt like please please and you seemed ok and it was a niceness and when you told me to dig I just wanted to dig for you it didn't look like I thought and you said waaaaaaaaaaalt and even then I said dig dig dig dig and if you were happy I was happy and night was growing and you came in the whole I said don't make me sleep I don't think I'll get back up again

hungry

said is it morning yet
and it wasn't , I said. , yes